I have been trying to write this ezine for two weeks. Every time I sit down to write, my brain turns to mush. So, with my commitment to get this to you and help from Spirit, it will be. Why mush? We have been going through a series of powerful energy shifts over the last two weeks. The last was so powerful that it was call a “hand of God.” It was anchored in St. Nazianz WI and went from 12:52 am – 3:39 am CDT*. It was another wonderful push from Spirit to open up to their help and support (whatever that means to you), awakening, becoming part of the solution (not the problem), finding security within and, of course, catastrophic blessing.

I, in my naivety, assumed that my car being stolen last week was my catastrophic blessing. No. In the moment, it was very catastrophic. I miss my Jeep and the freedom and joy she brought. This morning, I realized that losing her was a symptom. It was simply a physical manifestation of a core issue. Dealing with my lost car has been an amazing experience. People have been kind, helpful and understanding. I am being supported through this entire process. The process isn’t over and, no, I don’t know the outcome. That would take away from the adventure and the blessing.

The core issue is a catastrophe that many of us share. It is the catastrophe of lack of rightful relationship with self or lack of full self-love. That lack can manifest in many ways. All of them come down to not taking care of self in some way or another, which is not taking self-responsibility. For most of us, at this point on our paths, it is the unconscious and insidious aspects of self-denial. It is the part that often masquerades as compassion for the world or altruism or motherhood or fatherhood or dutiful child or any of a million other behaviors that put others before self and compromises our well being. Of course, it is packaged with some sort of personal punishment and judgment. That could look like any of the “overs” or “unders” (over/under eating, over spending, withholding). Yes, I have talked about this before. Each time I think I get it, another layer gets peeled away and there is new information and healing to be received.

We all have core lessons. My joke has always been that I’m a slow learner and when I finally get something, I get it forever. This “hand of God” is about peeling back as many layers as we can handle, bringing light to the darkness, blessing it, releasing it and transmuting it once and for all. This shift brings the knowledge and experience that we do not have to drag around the ball and chain of a core lesson for the rest of our lives. This is the time of freedom.

Let me be honest. We have been in this process for some months. We are not at the end. We are in the middle. The apex of this process was the 21st. We have been in the clean out phase. Many of you have been “spring cleaning” every aspect of your lives. The cleansing is also happening to your souls, your bodies, your minds and your hearts. It is a beautiful thing. OK, challenging, too!

Having to have one’s car disappear to learn this is pretty dramatic in the short run and quite humorous, in the long run. How resistant can one be in learning her lessons? How much of other people’s trauma can one person carry before she puts it down? I am hopeful that I am awake and this lesson needs go no further. In the spirit of full disclosure, this lesson presented itself in, at least, one other potentially catastrophic way -- simultaneously – just so I would be sure to get it.

Please look beyond the surface of the things presenting in your life. Don’t get hung up in the details of the events. They are just events and, yes, they have a very big message. We are walking in huge potential. First, we must make space for it. This phase is about making that space. Keep your sense of humor, take your flashlight and do not be afraid of the dark. Shine the light before things come of shadows. Name them, bless them, release them, transmute them and go have fun. You might just get a wonderful blessing, even more than you have been hoping for.

Blessings,

*Thank you Stephanie Jourdan, Astrologer, 818.340.4099, www.new-focus.com

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