Kim Pentecost

Might I just change those last three words to understanding and knowing! This is my life today. How about your life? Growth can be intense, sometimes seemingly unbearable and yet, exhilarating in the peace it brings. I’m in a particularly powerful and special birthday growth period (see below). I am facing everything that I “successfully” avoided over the last year(s). Now, I’m doing catch-up growth in preparation for this new phase in my life. It is fast, furious and with the intention of bringing me into greater balance, health, joy and peace. Growth is also happening on all levels simultaneously; mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. The good news is that things are moving so quickly that it is impossible to get stuck for very long. I am also practicing being in present time while keeping self-love and compassion in the forefront. It is a lot and, simply put, this will not be a boring two months.

So, why am I sharing my personal story with you? In hopes that you will receive support from witnessing my lessons. There are two major, parallel and simultaneous aspects of this healing. One is staying in truth. This is the truth that lies in the heart, not the head. It is a truth that refreshes the soul, mind, emotions and body when it is embraced. I have learned on my journey through life that, when I avoid my personal truth, it makes a big mess and takes a lot more energy to clean up than if I had stayed present with my heart’s truth to begin with.

We do avoidance because of fear. That fear is usually fear of being judged. Being judged is the fear of not being good enough. Not being good enough is being out of relationship with Self and Spirit. Being out-of-relationship with Self and Spirit is not letting love in. It all boils down to love, always and only. Every challenge we face in life boils down to not letting love in. This is a complex subject. Right here, the aspect that applies is that when we are filled with love, we have clean, strong boundaries. And, in love with boundaries, there is truth, healing, certainty, safety and all the other energies we need to live fully.

Today, I am practicing breathing love in every time I feel even a twinge of discomfort. Each time I get angry. Every time I feel tired. Every time I feel rushed. Of course, in my humanness, I don’t always remember right away. I still worry, grumble, rush or whatever. Then I remember. That usually brings me to laughter (at my silliness) and I breathe. I breathe in the love of the love of the Universe, Mother Earth and of all Spirit -- and I have peace. I have peace and I know truth. I know that all will happen in appropriate timing. I know that I can only be where I am, doing what I am doing. And, I manifest that outcome, the outcome of Love. The coolest part of this is that we can all breathe in Love until the day we leave this planet.

Which brings me to the parallel path. That path is to keep walking. This path has been called the path of Hope. I think it is greater than Hope. This path, for me, is the path of staying in relationship with Self and Spirit. We all blow out. I blow out on a pretty regular basis and question my purpose and why I am doing what I am doing. It may be me fighting me about going to the gym. Or arguing with my body about choosing the salad instead of the pizza. Or procrastinating taking a walk when I am tired. Or any number of daily challenges we all face. Here’s the deal. When I question the why, I hear the same answer from Spirit each and every time, “Because you deserve the best. You deserve Love.”

Love comes in all these forms. It comes in the salad because it makes my body happy now and tomorrow. Love comes in saying “No!” when I don’t have any more to give. It comes in when I take a moment to play with the kitties. Love comes with doing the laundry. It comes in paying the bills. Love comes in everything we do all day. We just have to let it in. Feel it from and to yourself. Feel it come in from Spirit.

So, why now, in this moment in time? Be kind to yourself and those you love. Get a head start. You don’t have to wait until your Wise Person years. Many people fear that the world is going into deeper chaos. I suggest that it is the chaos of growth. It has been said that in, chaos, we can more clearly see, understand and experience Love. So, in my personal chaos/growth, I choose to understand and experience the power of Love, both inside and out. You can, just as easily, make the same choice. The path and the work is to be able to sustain love and be love. The more consciously you breathe in love, the easier and more adventuresome the path becomes.

May you breathe in Love and stay the course,

Kim

* Annual birthday growth period – starts two weeks before one’s birthday and lasts for two weeks afterwards. The two weeks before gives us the opportunity to face all the things we have managed to avoid in the last year, bless them, heal them and release them. The actual birth date is called a “still point day” and there is no karma (YEA!!!) or issues to be dealt with (double YEA!!!). The two weeks afterward brings in new information, energy, inspiration and focus. (Do I need to count the YEA’s!)

This birthday is my 56th, which is, traditionally, the time of crowning or croning. The whole process starts 3 months before the birthday and continues 3 months afterward. It takes time because it is one of the two greatest transitions in life. This one is the transition from Matron or Mother to Wise Woman or Crone. I never thought it would such a visceral and comprehensive experience. I though it would be -- just another birthday. Let me go on record as saying that there is something even more powerful happening that is beyond the wild ride of life, even for me!