Are You Someone Special?

Of course you are!

We are all special. It is absolutely essential to our sense of self and well being that we discover and cherish that which makes us each distinctive. It may be ever present in your heart and mind. If it is not, look for it. You may find it buried in what you love to do. You may see it reflected to you in the compliment of a stranger. You may discover your passion and uniqueness through some unexpected event.

When I was young, I didn’t see myself as special in any way. I was actually told that I was weird and had better act “normal.” During those early years, most of us are trying to fit in so I had double duty in doing my best to figure out what “normal” was and then to fit in. It was confusing and frustrating. I couldn’t experience the world the way others did and I didn’t know that. How could I? I couldn’t live outside my experience and my family couldn’t live outside theirs.

Slowly, I came to understand. And then I came to love that thing that makes me special – and yes, weird to many. I love standing in an absolutely still place – seeing, hearing, sensing and knowing someone’s truth – and then supporting each one as she or he connects with the truth of her or his heart. For me, there is brilliance of light and peace when I am working. There is also a deep and profound love and appreciation for the person(s) with whom I am working.

As a fairly high-level telepath, I hear a lot of noise emanating from each person’s space. I hear the trauma. I hear the voices arguing and wanting to be heard. For the client, often the turbulence, pain, confusion and/or resistance are covering up the sense of peace and the confidence that comes with knowing.

At the beginning and end of the day, quiet is my healing. It is vital for me to I start each day with two to three hours of quiet; meditating, walking, reading and writing. In that way, I am the able to be present with the noise of life. I end the day with a little distraction such as a TV or a book and more quiet. This allows me time to process and release all that has happened during the day.

Would I like to be different? Sometimes. But this is who I am and how I am. It allows me to do the thing that I love to do most.

A writer friend and I had a discussion about the inspiration and energy of writing that is ever present even in the most difficult or tedious times. For a musician, there is an aspect of the music that keeps one going even when practice gets tiring. It is the same for accounting, parenting, competing – actually everything in life.

Do not be afraid to know who you are. Embrace who you are and the passions you hold in your heart. Having this knowing and relationship with our piece of the puzzle allows us to not lose ourselves, especially in the difficult times.

I have a friend that collects a unique kind of toy. I had to get my head around this because, yes – I had some judgment until I saw the light in his eyes. That light is love and appreciation for history and all that this collectable represents. It is actually quite beautiful and fascinating. Through his research and collecting, he has acquired a depth of knowledge and an understanding of humanity from a distinct angle that is brilliant, loving and quite humorous.

When I began my journey, it was not cool to be a psychic. I had a lot of odd and honestly, scary experiences. I was called names and rejected from many communities and organizations. I wouldn’t change nor could I. This is who I am, what makes me special and fills my heart. This is my piece of the puzzle.

What is that thing you will never let go of? Is it your love of nature or your understanding of electricity or your ability to be totally present with someone? Do you have something in you that makes you smile, no matter what?

There is something in you that makes you special. It is important for you to find it, OWN it, love your gift and love yourself for this being a part of you. Friends, family or society may find it quirky or strange. No matter. This is yours alone – your unique gift. It is one of the things that makes you special.

I hope you find your piece of the puzzle and treasure it. It is the light that gives brilliance to all that you are.

 

This Crazy Growth Cycle

Everything happens FOR you, not TO you. Everything happens at exactly the right moment, neither too soon nor too late. You don’t have to like it – it’s just easier if you do. ~ Byron Katie

I’m in the craziest growth cycle. Even though I have not yet come through to the end of this wild ride, I thought it might helpful to share my insights and experience with you.

Every morning for about a week, I woke up feeling tired, but OK. By 8:30 a.m. I was crying my eyes out. When the sobbing slowed down, I would do my meditation and be fairly good for the rest of the day. I did another short clean-out meditation at the end my workday and was great all evening.

It seemed that the more consistently I meditated, the worse I felt. A couple of days ago, when the crying started, I reached my limit. I was miserable and could not figure it out. I have been consistent with my twice-a-day meditations. They usually clear whatever I am processing and I feel wonderfully happy and quite balanced. But, it seemed no longer to be working. Now I was also beginning to be concerned that I would not be able to enjoy my life and or do my work.

Also, I should add that during this same time period, I recommitted to my evening walks. I had gotten pretty lazy about getting outside when the extreme heat hit this summer. Hmmm…could that caused this kind of shift?

The emotional roller coaster that accompanied the crying consisted of incredibly horrible feelings of self-doubt, purposelessness, self-loathing and other things I don’t even want to remember. In the midst of my sobbing I went through the shopping list of possible fixes: psychotherapy, doing a hormone check, diet, seeing my Naturopath and a myriad of other tools that I know can be effective. The answer was, ‘No, No and No. Do your meditation and the answer will come.’ Again, hmmm…

So I did my morning meditation with particular attention to letting go of and transmuting any and all inappropriate “stuff” in my Physical, Emotional, Mental and Spiritual Bodies. Very quickly, I felt like me again. Whew!!!

The question to Spirit was obviously, “What is going on?” The answer I got was – and I invite you to laugh heartily because I have been teaching this for years – that we are walking, talking human trash compactors! When I started diligently taking care of my whole self, (including the evening walks), the emotional trash started coming up and out. The feelings that I was experiencing were not mine at all, but other people’s emotions that I had picked up and been hauling around in my space and my body for who knows how long.

I am so relieved and a little embarrassed. But mostly, I am thrilled that, with consistent meditation and walking, I will let go of all this “stuff” I have been dragging around. I can now handle the emotional roller coaster because I know that “this too shall pass.” It is simply a part of the process. Actually, with the knowledge, the emotional roller coaster has decreased dramatically. No big deal, right?

Well, it is a big deal in that I have been carrying other people’s pain for way too long. It is also wonderful that it is being released and transmuted into healing energy and going where it is needed.

It is great to have an understanding of this crazy growth cycle. It is even better to know that I am now releasing held and stuck energy that wasn’t mine to begin with. And, I am overjoyed because I now have a formula to help me stay clear and clean through this lifetime.

I will walk every evening that I can and meditate twice a day when I am working. Please know that my second meditation of the day is a karmic release which takes me about five minutes. Effective meditation does not have to be long or challenging.

I will also keep my gym membership so I can walk the treadmill and/or elliptical when it is too hot or rainy out.

If you are having unusual emotional patterns right now, consider the information I was given. (It is also a good idea to check with your professional healing team, physical and non-physical). Most of all, listen to your Inner Knowing. Some of you have shared that your personal experience of this was unusual anger, extreme lethargy and increased migraines. I am sure there are many other versions of this crazy growth cycle. We are somewhat unique in the way we manifest our growth and experience our resistance to that growth.

Remember that there are times when healing presents in fairly harsh ways. It doesn’t always mean that you need to take extreme measures. Sometimes staying the course by doing what you know is right for you is the best answer. And remember, “this too shall pass” – because it will.

Blessings for more gentle and comfortable growth cycles for all of us.